playing

my fingers are still really painful from playing colby caillat and chris daughtry.

it's been years since i last touch a guitar. some four days ago i decided to play again since there was a guitar lying around. it felt incredibly freeing; a nice escape from a day to day blur.

singing while playing is a much, much better alternative to listening to music and identifying with every single thought, feelings and such crap in every song reinforcing further holding on to something that's not even worth holding on to.

the strums and the plucks, painful as they are are comforting. i blow my fingertips in fact after each song to prep me for another song. i'll keep playing until it won't hurt anymore.