notoriously lazy

i'm not liking myself very much these days. it's been four days since i got back and all i did so far'seat and sleep ( and attempt to polish my RRL which i never got to doing ). if i am not sleeping i'm just lying there daydreaming, imagining and hoping if i make those few steps to my balcony i'd see hot pink cabs in the street instead of the boring white ones.damn, i'm notoriously lazy like this!

if anyone knows a pill i can take to just get out of this current state please give me a ring a'ight?

one of the thoughts i'm stuck with at the moment, actually it keeps playing every now and then in my little watery brain is this stranger's( a dutch who sat beside me on my flight back here ) words. he told me, i look like a person who should be travelling given my interest in the world. i thought he's right. i'm interested in and about the world. he asked which places i like to visit. i obliged by enumerating first the ones in asia namely vietnam, myanmar, indonesia and malaysia.in europe i said i wanted to go to greece, turkey, georgia, russia. i saw a slight surprise in his expression when i mentioned the eastern european countries. he suggested i consider amsterdam. i said it's also one of my favorites. then it occured to me while i'm talking to this person, i'm actually trapped once again in that daydreaming mode. i quipped before i turned my attention to the distant view of the philippine territory " this lifetime is not enough for me to be able to go to places i want to go to". he retorted " then you might want to consider converting to buddhism ". we laughed.

i really need the pill.